I am going to jump around in telling my story. Jumping from today to yesterday to last year & beyond. I will simply write what comes to me - some memories are vague & some are painfully vivid. It is a crazy ride & so will be the telling.
To continue: Needless to say it is always shocking to hear such news. Friends, family & loved ones all react in one of the following states: disbelief, shock, sadness, anger. As the one who received the news, I can agree that all of those went through my brain in a nano-second...in addition to being completely gob-smacked,. finally landing on: now what do i do? Little did I realize that I already put a plan in place.
The previous fall I had watched my mum be constantly misdiagnosed & basically be brutalized by our so-called premier medical system. Everything that could go wrong for her, did. We had no one that we could rely on, no one to turn to. When it was finally diagnosed as cancer, discovered during a botched exploratory surgery, the chemo & radiation simply hastened her death. She went undiagnosed for so long, that her body could not cope with this barbaric practice, also known as cancer treatment. It was during her worst period that I told my husband that "if" that every happened to me, I will do whatever it takes NOT go through that.
There was no way that I could have known that in less than nine months I would be faced my own diagnosis with the challenge & opportunity to look at life in a completely different way.
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